I Hope

“Thomas Edison’s last words were ‘It’s very beautiful over there’. I don’t know where there is, but I believe it’s somewhere, and I hope it’s beautiful.” –Looking for Alaska, John Green

3 thoughts on “I Hope

  1. This is Sky, Raven, Jordan, or whatever you want to call me now. I have something I’d like to say to you, and although I’m not asking for forgiveness or a truce or for things to be back the way they were, because I know it’s too late for any of that, I am asking you to read this, try to understand, and to not throw it back in my face. I, finally, am actually moving on, but I can’t do that until I’ve said this, because 1 – it’s true and 2 – I want you to know this.

    I’d like to say that I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry for all the times I’ve hurt you, knowingly or unknowingly, intentionally or unintentionally. I’m sorry for being a failure in everything that I do. I’m sorry for everything.

    I would also like to mention something rather less important. My dad got me a copy of “The Fault in Our Stars,” by John Green, as a complete surprise. I stayed up all night reading it last night, and for some reason, it reminds me of you.

    Thank you for your time.

    • I don’t want you to apologize because you’re not wrong. But thank you for moving on and not lashing out, I really do appreciate it.

      I love The Fault in Our Stars. It’s tragically beautiful. (Unlike me, of course) It makes me cry and laugh and keeps me on the edge of my seat until I just can’t handle all the emotions and throw down the book to exclaim at all the unfair things in the world. Though Gus is probably one of the most attractive male leads I have ever read, I fancy myself a little bit like him. At first I wanted to be like Hazel, but the world isn’t a wish-granting factory. Augustus has everything figured out and wants to be a martyr. Gus is beautiful in who he is and what he is and how he handles the world. Gus is tragic but beautiful in that. I’m tragic but lack beauty in that tragedy.

      I don’t want to act too nice in my reply because I don’t want you getting the wrong idea. But I THANK GOD for someone finally being able to see past all these layers I hide and forgiving me even though it wasn’t really their fault.

      • Thank you for understanding.

        Yes, it is. I was close to tears one moment and laughing the next, and overall the entire book is just plain beautiful in every possible way.

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